Passed. Conditional. Failed

Thankful.

c/o ate nikki. taken after the defense. :)

I’ve always been thankful for all the blessings that God has given me. Though, sometimes, I lose faith in him, he still gives more blessings and most of the time, much more than that.

Last Saturday, 09 10 11, was our Thesis Final Defense. My classmates and I, and even our parents and friends, were all nervous of what would be the outcome of our hardships. It was 8am when the defense started.

Thesis final defense is a big deal. It’s a do or die. All groups have given their best effort for their research. We all spent sleepless nights just to finish and meet the deadlines. We all spent even our single centavo just to print and photocopy all the manuscripts needed. We all spent so much of our time for our own study. We all spent tears when we feel tired and restless.

Jamie and I were the fourth to present. Jamie was emotional on that day, so I really have no choice but to stay relaxed and keep our control. And there, after we present our research, the panelists then asked questions. Honestly speaking, we got drained because of the questions they raised. While answering questions one by one, I have this feeling that we might fail. When we got outside the room while waiting for the final verdict, I couldn’t help my emotions and cry because I already lose hope. When we got inside again, I feel so happy that we PASSED. We just have to complete some things that they want us to fix.  It was just funny that I cried because I misunderstood the result. Hahaha! Our adviser asked me, “o anong iniiyak?”, and I said, “ ano po ba kami? Mali po ba kami?” and she said, together with the panelists, “No. may ilalagay lang kayo tapos i-pacheck at ayos na.” Then I feel relieved. Hay. They commend us for having a good research despite the fact that we’re just two. I feel proud of our team. I am thankful that I have Jamie as my thesis buddy. Lord, thank you.

Though we still have revisions and other groups have to defend it again, still, I am very thankful for we all made it. We made it because we pray. We made it because we are supported by those people who love us. The experience we had made me feel loved. I am very thankful to have those people who love our batch very much. From our parents, up to our friends, batchmates, school mates, CAS family, CAS ates and kuyas, CAS babies, professors and even the security guards who wish us luck on that day. Who wouldn’t be happy if you’re surrounded with those loving and supportive people? Who wouldn’t feel blessed? :D

Our thesis is like our own baby. We spent almost a year to finish it. And I’m excited to see it printed and binded. Yee! I know time will come that we will all miss doing our thesis. It became a habit for us. It became part of lives for almost a year. But for now, I think we all deserve to have a rest. We deserve to have a break and breathe for a while. We all deserve to smile :D

Thesis it! :D